This is the space where I get to tell you what I think. I
made myself a couple of promises when I decided to start doing
these. First, I was never going to judge other people for
their feelings. Their experience is their experience, how
they feel is based on how they take in the data before them and process
it. I do not need to agree with their
feelings, nor do they need to agree with mine. Second, I
decided that I was going to try and be positive and forward looking,
because the alternative just makes me something I don't like and
something I cannot sustain for very long.
Now, all of the said, consider, if
you will, where a
Michigan fan might be standing right now.
Since September 1, 2007, you have seen your team play 40
games. In that time
span as of this weekend, you
have seen your team win as many games as they have lost.
Twenty Saturdays up,
twenty Saturdays down. Twenty
times happy, twenty times sad. You
have seen hope crushed in the waking
moments of a new rising sun. You
have
seen hope's corpse taken out back and burned repeatedly.
You've seen redemption
come from unlikely
sources. You've
seen a cold night in
Champaign. You've
seen a darn near
miracle in Orlando. You've
seen a
comeback like nothing you've seen before in Ann Arbor.
You've seen another quarterback in orange and
blue leave flame trails behind him like a time-traveling
DeLorean. You've seen a walk-on save
the Jug. You've
seen a freshman led an unlikely
comeback in a shootout. You've
seen all
hope die on four chances from the one.
You've seen an invasion of red into the Big House. You've
seen a sophomore do
things we only
thought that other teams did to Michigan.
You've seen 20 wins and 20 losses.
So maybe this is why Saturday's
performance doesn't bother
me. It was a win. The gap between "survives
upset
bid" or "gets a scare from an FCS school" and losing is a chasm
visible from space. We've
been on the
other side of that chasm, or perhaps more accurately at the bottom of
it. Michigan won on
a day when they didn't play
well. That
genuinely may not happen for
the rest of the season. Why
would this
bother us? It's
because college football
has an amazing propensity to be unable to allow people to live in the
moment. The future
and the past are
always eminently more important in college football, as exemplified by
"recruiting"
and "tradition". We
cannot
enjoy a win because of worries like "What does this say to recruits?"
and "How does this fit in to the Michigan tradition?"
We're fixated on the two end points because
we do not like the middle, the place we are standing right
now. It saddens me because it's
hard to appreciate
the moment when you're in it. So
allow
me to try.
On Saturday, I saw some amazing
things at a game that was
just one of many that day. I
saw a marching
band put on an exceptional performance in a circumstance of whose
difficulty
and emotional toll I cannot even begin to fathom.
I saw a tribute to a Michigan man that was so
perfect for him because it didn't try to recast him as a saint, but
simply as a
fantastic athlete who genuinely cared about where he came from and
being a part
of the fabric of that. I
saw a sophomore
quarterback throw an interception and shake it off to have a really
remarkable
day, including a couple of deep balls that are among the prettiest I've
seen. I saw a
receiver get to show off
his new field vision and some of the promise he's long been purported
to
have. I saw a pair
of running backs find
holes, drag guys, and gain yardage.
I
saw Vincent Smith cut so hard on the wet turf that the rubber pellets
in the
field turf made a little cloud under his feet.
I saw a team with flaws but flaws that can be worked on. I
saw a team with promise,
but promise that
needs work to be fulfilled.
I don't get to watch next week's game
for the first time in
seven years, family commitments. I
just
hope the next 40 games find us happier, smarter, wiser, and more able
to live
in the moment.
3 comments:
Great column. We've laughed, we've cried, we just keep hoping for the best. I'm cautiously optimistic that we've turned the corner.
UMass band got a great welcome, hope that helped them.
I love this point: "It's because college football has an amazing propensity to be unable to allow people to live in the moment."
This is absolutely true. Great stuff.
Thank you both for the kind words. James, I must credit my friend (and Northwestern alum) James Quintong of ESPN.com for that essential thesis. He said it to me in a conversation about six years ago and it's stuck with me.
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